Hey, guys. This topic is a heavy one, and doesn't have a clear answer or summary like the informational articles do. I want to start out by saying that I'm almost certain that the experience of guilt with chronic illness is pretty much universal. My mom has a serious auto-immune disorder, and last night I was talking about it with my father. He said, "I know... I know it doesn't work this way. But she didn't deserve it. And it took me a long time to get over that." He went on to talk about how she had a strong moral compass that she adhered to and in a sense he expected that to protect her.
This is something really important to acknowledge. A lot of people (I wanted to say most, but I'm not sure) have an underlying belief that they are safe from all the bad things in life. Sometimes bad things happen and we think, "I don't live in that area. That thing can't happen to me." Often in recent times, people will see very violent events and assume that mental illness played a role in the motive. Now, we know that's not necessarily true. Mentally ill people are not inherently more violent, nor do they represent a disproportionate amount of violence (Stuart, 2003).
Obviously the stereotype of mentally ill people being more violent is a dangerous one, and has many negative effects for the mentally ill. I'll go more into that later. What I want you to understand right now is that this idea exists because it makes people feel safer. "I'm not mentally ill; I could never do something like that. The people around me could never do something like that," is the mentality going on behind the scenes.
We have to confront that very same mindset. "This could never happen to me. Could never happen to someone I love." I know that it's scary. I apologize for being slightly unprofessional, but it's fucking terrifying. Regardless of your beliefs, bad things happen to anyone and everyone. You have not done anything wrong to deserve these symptoms or these experiences. Nothing that you could've done differently would have negated the genetic/psychological predisposition to psychosis.
I'm not saying it's not a big deal. Truely accepting that realization is extremely difficult and can take a lifetime to achieve. I am here for you, your support system is here for you, and there are resources available to you. If guilt over your symptoms is something that's affecting your everyday life, I highly suggest you speak to a counselor about it. It helped me a lot to be able to speak to other people who have had similar experiences. As a final note, I want you to know that I've been through what you're going through. I promise, you deserve help, you are struggling enough to seek help, and none of your symptoms are your fault.

Too Long; Didn't Read: This one was a little hard to write. Sickness does not discriminate. You did nothing to deserve the symptoms you have. You deserve help, and should seek a path to recovery.

Sources:
Stuart, H. (2003, June). Violence and mental illness: An overview. Retrieved June 08, 2020, from https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1525086/